First night in dorm. I have just re-realized that my new school’s colors are exactly my old school’s colors. (Damn awful upholstery.) Some things I am carrying with me.

These are the things making me sad:

• the detached closet, which is ridiculous, so deep, and so… orange. And so large. Hahaha.
• that my desk lamp appears to be broken…
• the overhead lighting
• an internet connection too slow to stream music well
• the mess on my floor/wanting to hang all my clothes tonight before I go to bed
• a feeling which is not quite aloneness, not quite nervousness, not quite missing… but which is close to the three

These are things making me happy:

• the gigantic window
• the few clothes which are hanging seem so terribly familiar; they are feeding life into me with their familiar faces
• that I have a single dorm
• the letter in my brand new mailbox from a brand new pen pal
• the promise of eventually going to sleep
• of a memory which reminds me of Titanic in its fierceness, of being told I will have a great life, a great life here