I can’t wait til it’s watermelon season!
Human lungs are 91% water. Mmm, scrumptious, hehehe.
Nipple piercings…. I want them; it is a want that weighs lightly in my mouth.
How happy I am that I only have yoga, math discussion and zoo lecture tomorrow: SO HAPPY.
It’s so true that midterms make everything else stand still. I took two midterms today, and don’t have another until next Monday, then two more the week after; therefore, tomorrow will be the day I will carry the least class-oriented stress. And I am so ready for it! :)
Is it wrong to donate to charities? The WFP uses only 7% of donations towards managerial and fund raising purposes, which was plenty to convince me to send a donation, but then I spoke to my Mama, who made me feel bad over my decision, likening it to giving of money to homeless people… I do not know. I just want to try to do good, but there is of course always degrees of ability to help, and what I did may be wrong… but there are real people in Somalia really volunteering to distribute food and aid, and so there must have been some real way to supply food, and so someone’s donations must matter… I do not know! We spoke of just this in logic this morning; it should be easy to give any small thing to elevate all of humanity to some kind of basic living, in times of disaster and always, without wrenching at our suspicions. No one should feel bad after giving a donation of a reputable charity, I think…
Things I am doing today:
and then I can come back to campus and pick up an application for a leadership position in an outdoor youth club, hehe, which I am truly excited about. But! All I wanted to do today was go to the beach and lay about and swim with a friend for many hours before my 4:00 lecture. But instead my phone gave me a ton of problems, and expedited the need to run errands. Oh well, I guess. If I leave now, hopefully I can get back by one, and still have a few lazy hours. Maybe I’ll go to the beach tonight, hehehe. I guess I am just strongly opposed to Friday day chores, hehe.
RONALD REAGAN IS A GILF!!!!
DEAR LORD, I LOVE HIM!
I am feeling so very good tonight. This interim after family has left but before classes have started has been quite nice. :) Yesterday I hiked twice, alone and then with others. (The photos are from the first trail.) Today I ate twice, once alone and once with others. And I only cleaned my room today, but I also happily heard from a friend I have been missing. I feel full, and proud of myself for not hiding out too much in my room, and close to peaceful, hehe. And, I just made my first cup of tea with my (very fancy, hehe) electric kettle, and it was ridiculous! It boiled 2 cups of water in 40 seconds. Very fancy, as I said. I’m happy. I think hanging photos changes a lot of how a room feels. It may not look very good (even though I think it does, but the walls may just look cluttered), but I feel surrounded by some silent support which urges me closer to normal, closer to a home in my heart.
First night in dorm. I have just re-realized that my new school’s colors are exactly my old school’s colors. (Damn awful upholstery.) Some things I am carrying with me.
These are the things making me sad:
These are things making me happy:
8/3: Plan of attack for packing:
8/8: Packing update: I have joked that moving feels like dying, with my parents over and over again saying, “At least she’s going to a better place.” —However, as it approaches, I do feel like I am moving closer to death. I placed, at this weekend, two vases in my room stuffed full of bright spider mums, and it is the biggest crime watching the room meet its death around them. I oughtn’t to have started packing until the day before the move, I think to myself, for being in such an atmosphere is causes deaths, in me, over and over again—me, the least sentimental of women, turning to have such a large, weak heart.
8/9: Update: packing is so boring
8/10: I have to be done packing tonight, because I want to have plans tomorrow and Friday. I’m going to make a new list. Still-to do:
Okay. That’s a list with many items on it, but it’s not that bad because that’s it. Yay! End in sight. Whoo. Shit, my room looks disastrous. I don’t look like I’ve been packing for a week now, and Papa is skeptical, hahaha — for good reason. I told him I’d be done by the time he got home today. And… it’s not. But it’ll be done tonight, for sure. :)
8/10: I have box a photo box that stores 100 4”x6” photos. Right now, it has many more than 100 in it, and it is straining, but I continue finding and adding photos to it, one by one. It makes me wonder at the line where one more truly becomes too much.
8/11, 12:27: UGH PACKING :( :( :(
8/11, 12:50: Okay, I’m not done yet, but I’ve got to make a to-do list for today, too. Today, I HAVE to:
8/11, 1:15: I have far, far too many clothes. I thought I had “cleaned it out” in May, but I hadn’t, and so I think I will be shedding some more once I get out there, haha.
